"Sometimes we build walls just to see who cares enough to break them down..."

 

Kanye Doing Some Material From His New Album Good Ass Job. He May Be a Lil Cocky, But I Still Think He's A Musical Genius. They Say Most Geniuses Are Quote on Quote Weird/Different From The Status Quo Anyway 

A Little Bit of Summer So Far

People are like icebergs. Only showing 10% of our true selves to others. The other 90 is hidden beneath the water...

Whenever I Have Chips B4 I Go To Sleep, I Have Nightmares

Anyway, had a bad dream last night involving me and my significant other. Wasn't a good night and the dream seemed so real. It involved some betrayal and some heartbreak. I'm not gonna get too deep into the details, but I feel that every dream has a meaning /lesson within it. Long story short, I felt defeated at the end of the dream, but i got out of it is that I need to be a better man, more respectful, and not afraid to share my feelings with her, even if it can be hard or embarassing at times.
                   When I awoke today I was just in an overall bad mood and the rest of my day went as such even though it was a great day. Now even though in that dream, there was betrayal, I feel as if I betrayed my significant other, not in the conventional way, but wrong nonetheless. And no I didn't cheat because I would never do that, but like I said b4, the details are between me and her. Anyway she still deals with me and she seems like a Godsend to me. Call me soft, but even tho I appreciate everything that she is and does for me, I need to appreciate her even more. She's a great woman and I don't wanna lose her so I must make ammends for my mistake, communicate more with her, and treat her like the queen that she is. I believe this dream helps me to be more thankful for the love and happiness that life has given me and to consider her feelings and respect her even more b4 she walks out of my life which is far from what I want. I gotta lot of love to give. I know, kind of a long post. Whatever I'll end it with one of my favorite songs and videos from 2 of my favorite artists to just make one post for the day.

TRASH CAN DAY!!! EVERYBODY KNOW'S ABOUT TRASH CAN DAY LMAOOOOOOOOOO. CLASSIC

TK. He's so cool and down to earth maybe dats why I repect him so much... Or maybe it's cuz he kinda looks like me lol

Smh

Man what I week I've had. My email got hacked, started receiving random texts from anonymous vtext numbers that I can't reply back to, still having concerns about what my future plans involve and everyone keeps pestering me about them, had a huge heart ache and falling out happen with someone extremely close to me, and had a family member checked into the hospital. My father always told me that the lord would always put us through atleast one time in life where we would have to endure hardships and persevere through it in order to better ourselves, but I wonder, as bad as this time has been going, is THIS that time in my life that i will have to endure and overcome or will another one come later that will make this period of pain see like nothing...

Question... if your African-American, would you ever name your child Toby after seeing "Roots"?
Another question... Why is it that we always see lightning from a far distance, never above us (not that i wanna get shocked or anything). Just a thought

"The opposite sex is a conundrum,

shrouded in a cloud of mystery,

demanding the always,

saying in tongues"

Kid Cudi...100% Dope

A Dream

Random thought. I always wanted to go to Japan to visit Tokyo to see how they party over there and also see a cherry blossom falling over there as well. Until i begin my life and get my funds together, I'll just have to use google to help me out lol... 

UGGHHH

Y am I so laaazy. Yesterday i had nuthin but time on my hands. I should've started on my 3rd time sheet for my internship, or the paper, or atleast worked on the powerpoint. Instead I played halo and left for dead 2 for mad long and went to the Taste of Buffalo food festival and only got one meal. Smh. I have the day off 2moro so I'm gonna attempt to knock all of my work out before I go workout. Procrastination I HATE YOOOUUUU

Enjoy It While You Can

A lot of people will get on my case about how slow I walk, or that I take ridculously long showers and baths. My response to them is that "As time goes by, it seems as if it moves faster everyday. Plus we only get one chance at life, unless you believe in reincarnation, which I'm on the fence with (it sounds nice and i wish it were possible). If I can find anytime out of my day, to relax, reflect on things, and take in all the joys that life has to offer us in the form of a serene walk or a comforting shower, does that make me a bad person, or someone who wants to enjoy all of life while I am still on this plane?" We never really know when it will be our time to go. I believe that we should make the most of our lives now before it's too late. Whether it be expressing yourself, loving others, pushing yourself to knew levels, or just walking...

YOOOO CARLTON USED TO GO HARD!!

One of My Favorite Joints of All Time

One of My Favorite New Joints

Never Judge A Book By It's Cover

So another day at the internship goes by, but this time with new surprises. As I'm workin on lifting techniques with some of the kids, my by the book supervisor/owner of the facility hears an Eric B and Rakim joint drop on the radio... Homeboi says yo Ky yo gotta turn this up, it's my jam lmaooo. Middle aged white guy, all about sports bumps Rakim lol. So i'm like cool and turn it up. So then he breaks into the will smith gettin Jiggy Wit It dance. I literally fell on the floor rollin. lol. It was the higlight of my day, even though i was in that place for 12 hours with no pay, it didn't seem that bad after that.
                  And then when we closed the facility and I was getting a little workout in with the other coaches who are around my age, who seem like they worship my supervisor, all spilled their guts out about how they feel like my supervisor's a tight ass, or how he's so focused on certain things instead of others. i was again shocked lol. If you walked into this place you would swear that they were his kids by the way they praise the man, but all the time they were just regular, down to earth people who were willing to keep it real with me. That's why I'm always tellin ppl to never judge a book by it's cover. It's kinda funny, cuz the very thing that I preach all the time, I actually caught myself doing lol. Life's funny that way.

Shout Out

Shout outs to my man chosen. Just dropped another long awaited mixtape Chaos Theory. The boy be puttin out bangers. Holla at it yall..... It's FREE lol.

Here's the Link ... http://www.datpiff.com/Chosen_Chosen__Chaos_Theory.m130617.html

What Are Those? They're Fresh to Me

OK OK so i know i'm hittin ya'll with a lot of posts today, but whatever. IT'S MY JOURNAL NOT YOURS! lol. So alot of people been coming to work with these shoes in, I think they're dope. Some of my friends think they're weird, and da misses makes fun of me for liking em lol but I'm coppin I pair this weekend YA HEARD ME lol. They're sports performance kicks for running, hiking, weightlifting, climbing, water sports, pilates, the list goes on. I'm always active with track, weightlifting, and preparing to be a strength & conditioning coach so they should be perfect for me. I even tried a pair on after work and I loved em. Check it...

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