Advice for the Ladies

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you're in your sweats, who holds your hands in front of his friends, who thinks your just as pretty without makeup on and lets you know that you dont need it. Who will give you the clothes of his back and the shoes off his feet just to make sure that your warm and that your feet are comfortable. One who is constantly letting you know how much he cares and is lucky to have you. One who turns to his family and friends and says, "that's her"...
Thinking of you...

Lol. A very creative tat. Not sure if i would've got it, but i love it nonetheless

What to Do

So i don't have to go in for my internship today, but my intternship professor made me meet with her at 9am today anyway. Smh. I'm almost posistive that she isn't gonna be busy later on in the day. Oh well. Now that, that's over and done with, I don't know what to do with the rest of my day. I wanna catch up on a little bit of sleep (but i'm incapable of taking power naps, just doesn't work for me and leaves me more tired), but i also wanna do a little lifting and running but it's pretty chilly up here which is so ridiculous cuz the monht of July starts 2moro. And there's also my internship paper that I could start working on now, but at the same time i feel like i'll probably end up procrastinating. I swear procrastination is the college students curse and it's so hard to fight this guy. I think i need to reflect on my thoughts and way my options. Sigh, i wish Pepper Ann still came on tv, if i could just watch that now it'd ease a little stress lol.

LoL they really look like Pepper Ann and Nicky LOL

Sorry i've been AWOL for a couple of days. I finally got back up to buffalo and started my internship. I'm working at a strength and conditioning center trying to hone my skills towards my profession. I felt as if my college didn't give me the necessary skills/classes to handle this kinda job, but suprisingly I understood almost everything that went on today. It's also a kind of relaxing environment even though i spent like 8 hours doin nothing but taking notes and observing. Even though i'm familiar with the material, i still feel like it's a little over my head, especially since the owner (who's also my supervisor) is supposed to be one of the top strength and conditioning coaches in the nation. We'll see how all this pans out...

Fresh

 

Wavy

"NEVER MAKE A DECISION WHEN YOU'RE ANGRY, AND NEVER MAKE A PROMISE WHEN YOU'RE HAPPY"

Michael

I kno every blogger's probably gonna do something like this today, but whatever...Can you believe that it's been a whole year since Michael Jackson died? It seems like it was such a short time ago. Maybe because the media would never let the man rest in peace, or just kept delaying his burial. And now everybody acts like they worshipped the man. All they did since the 90's was critique the way he lived and poke fun at the legend. Even the kid who was a so called "molestation victim" came forward and admitted Michael never did it. I won't lie to you, i loved his music but never really was a Michael Jackson fanatic like how alot of people "say they are", but I respected him cuz i kno how the media will contort any kind of story just to get ratings. Anyway R.I.P. Mike. In honor of the anniversary of his death, here's 2 of my favorite Michael Jackson songs.

"INSOMNIA IS A KIND OF TORTURE, BECAUSE WHILE THE WORLD IS FAST ASLEEP, YOU'RE UP ALL ALONE,YOUR MIND BUZZING WITH EVERY RANDOM THOUGHT IN THE UNIVERSE, AND SOMETIMES THE THOUGHTS WILL REACH A STANDSTILL AND YOUR MIND GOES BLANK, YOU BECOME MORE AWARE OF THE SILENCE, AND IT IS DURING THAT MOMENTS THAT YOU REALIZE HOW ALONE YOU ARE"

LOVE EM

I've been havin a plethora of bad dreams as of lately. I try to analyze all of my dreams because i believe every dream has a deeper meaning within, however i haven't been able to fully decipher these recent ones. I think that i'm getting them because i'm getting ready to return to my college for my summer internship and the final class necessary for my diploma and the anxiety of leaving all of my friends and loved ones is kicking in.
               The problem is that i've made this trek numerous times b4, so why the anxiety now. Maybe because this may be my last go around at the place that i've learned to love, or maybe it's because i'm realizing that i'm becoming ever closer to begginning my life in the real world. Whaever it is, i wish it would pass because i so much love to enjoy a full cycl of sleep. I'm starting to feel drained...

I tend to like music with new sounds, that makes you think, and that doesn't exactly conform to what everyone else in the industry is doing, however I've always been partial to the Dipset lol. So when i found out that they were getting back together i was amped. And then i came across a video of Cam's producer Arab goin in on the MPC boards. So in honor of the hopeful reunion, here's the video.

Never Boring, Never the Same, Always Fresh

The World In My Hands

So today's father's day and i wanted to thank my father the best way i could. So i got him a hannah montana gift bag, with a card and chappelle show dvd set in it lol. My family always do dumb stuff like that lol. But seriously, in the card I wrote a lot, but here's a snippet..."Thank you for putting the world in the palm of my hand, you taught me how to be a man in a world where most people my age don't have one to look up to. You always supported me no matter what endeavor i took on and gave me the proper knowledge and guidance to make me an intellectual. Mere words cannot express how i feel about you." That's all you guys get, but you get the picture. Happy Father's Day.

Managers

This is why it's crucial to have an education. So you don't end up like this guy. I don't know what would possess somebody to go through so many years of schooling, and then work the rest of their lives as a manager of retailer or grocery store. Not only that, but somewhere along the line i feel as if this mediocre job becomes their lives and slowly starts to consume them. I've seen people in stores who were friends with everybody in the store get promoted to assistant managers and what not, and slowly it seems as if they're ties with everyone else starts to tear. I dunno, it's just my opinion but i just feel as if it's not sumthing to be proud of, unless of course your the CEO of that company. Shoot for the stars...

Funny pic i came across. It does kinda make sense though. I kinda wish we'd just end this war, i'm not very political but i don't see any real reason to be over there. On top of that, it's separating a lot of soldiers from their families. My uncle and one of my best friends both had to go overseas because of this, thankfully they're Ok but the fact remains

Support Those, Whose Support You

 One of my homie Chosen's many drops. Support the brother yall. He got bars

 

"So while you busy tryna fit in ima stand out, and view life through this lens and see how it pans out"

        -Wiz Khalifa

Kinda Ridiculous

So i went to go see the karate kid movie with will smith's son to see what all the hype was about. I felt like i already knew how it was gonna go down, which i did, but for sum reason went anyway. Long story short, wimpy black kid goes to China, gets bullied by less wimpy Chinese kid, learns all forms of Kung Fu in like a month! then defeats like half the kids in china that have been trained in kung fu for like all of their lives, not to mention he does it on a nearly broken leg, some funny moments in between. It's a feel good family movie but i constantly find myself analyzing deez kinda movies. They just don't seem to make any kinda sense to me because there's like no real way that this could happen. Anyway the action was pretty good so i can't knock it. I just wish they'd start making some more realistic movies again like Friday. I know what your thinkin...Nigga movie, but think hard about it. Can't you really imagine people on the block actin like that for real, with no overacting done in the movie? Wild homie who just don't know when to shut up, that thug that everybody seems to keep an eye on and be jackin niggas for they stuff, wild crackheads and that old school father who doesn't want anybody in his house or eatin his hard earned food lol. Even though it was a comedy, it had to be one of the most believable movies I've ever seen in my entire life. Just a thought...

Keep it a 100

So i figured i'd start off my new blogging life with a few words of wisdom i recently came across. "When you don't say what is on your mind you will be prone to gossip, rebel or commit acts of betrayal against yourself and others. The only way to free yourself from the stress of not saying what you are thinking is to speak your truth with love, clarity and conviction." After reading this i immediately knew i wanted others to see these words. I also realized that my gf who i already know is smart, is smarter than i think she is because she often preaches to me words similar to these when referring to couples who are unhappy because they keep things from eachother or don't speak their minds. Which brings me to this youtube clip my friend showed me the other day where a guy wins the lottery and after so much pent up aggression and unhappiness over the years finally vents his frustration on his friends and wife because he believes he no longer needs them because he's rich, only to realize the lottery ticket was fake. At first it's hilariously funny, but then I realize that if he had previously let his spouse know how he was feeling, maybe this akwaard moment wouldn't have come about. Still, it's pretty funny lol.

FINALLY DID IT!

I've been contemplating for a while to create a blog. i believe that everybody should have an outlet to vent their feelings wether it be family, friends, significant others, etc... I have all of those options but just feel that the world should know a little bit more about what i'm feeling and what i have to say throughout my days. I think i live a very interesting and event filled life lol. Plus we really don't know how much time we have left on this plane of living and i want to leave back some sort of legacy should i pass in the near future (god forbid). This is an technology/internet driven world anyway, this is just another way for my friends to keep in touch. SHOUT OUTS to nicole, gilead david n the rest a yall lol. Well... lets get this thing started lol